Tuesday, June 30, 2009
June 30, 2008
My long excursion to the grocery store on Sunday had not sent me into labor. So Monday night when I woke and couldn't sleep, I trudged up and down our stairs at least 10 times, hoping that maybe my water would break or something. I still have no idea what it is like to go into labor naturally, so I don't really know what I was hoping would happen. For some reason I really didn't want to have to be induced. I wanted the surprise of labor starting on it's own. And I did not want to take the timing of his birth into my own hands. But I'll write more about that later...
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June 30, 2009
Silas is 11 months, 3 weeks, and 7 days old.
Silas and I went shopping today for first birthday party stuff. It was such fun. Just the thought of getting kid birthday things made me giggle the entire time.
Silas loves being at the store. He likes watching the people and looking at the TV screens and being part of the hustle and bustle. When he was a baby I had to wear him in a baby carrier to get though a whole trip to the store. Now he sits in the cart, eats a snack, and enjoys the ride. Until I push it a bit too long. Then he starts to reach into the back of the cart and try to throw things out (I'm not kidding). Whereupon, I take him out and hold him, pulling the heavy cart beside us. I'm sure we're a sight.
Silas ate tacos with us tonight (well, the meat part). He loved it. He is quite the eater and isn't picky. He is thrilled with finger foods and eats what we are having if it is soft enough. I am giving him more fresh fruits and veggies as he can handle them (so far he has blueberries, pears, pineapple, banana, peas, sweet potato, avocado, and corn). And we're starting on whole milk.
And with that documented, I'm heading to bed. Lots to do to get ready for a birthday in just 2 days!
Monday, June 29, 2009
June 29, 2008
It was a Sunday but I can't remember for sure if I went to church that day. I'm thinking not. I know it's not a reason to miss worship, but I was so tired of saying, Yep, I'm still here. Nope, no baby yet. Yep, I do keep getting bigger. Nope, no real contractions. Yep, I was due on Friday. Sigh.
I did go to the grocery store that afternoon. That I remember. It was a huge trip. Shane reprimanded me for going. I was completely exhausted when I got home, but felt victorious that the house would be well-stocked for the days to come. Shane gently called it spending a whole lot of money at the store. I called it nesting.
My parents arrived that night. While I had desperately wanted to have our baby as soon as possible, I was overjoyed that they got to see me in all my pregnant glory. And it was priceless that they would get to be with us for each moment of our baby's birth. I still thank the Lord that His timing is perfect.
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June 29, 2009
Silas spent the day with our friend Tiffany and her two boys today. I was at work and Shane had class. It has been the hardest thing for me this year: the leaving. I do love what I do. I see purpose in the work the Lord has given to me. I am grateful that I make a difference in the lives of children with disabilities; I get to come alongside parents of children with special needs. I have had the chance to be a mentor. I have direct contact with people who do not know Christ.
But I miss Silas like crazy. It may only be 19 hours a week, but it is still 19 hours that I would otherwise be answering is at?, sitting under our backyard tree blowing bubbles, pushing a stroller through the neighborhood, changing diapers, teaching boundaries, reading cardboard books, making goofy sounds, singing silly songs, fostering good sleep, and pushing any and all buttons in sight. And all the while, knowing it is the most purposeful work I have ever done.
Don't get me wrong. This is the right thing for us during this season. I am much at peace with working. I do miss Silas, but he is well cared for and loved when he is not with me. Being with our friends has done wonders for his social development. Being away has done wonders for my appreciation of the time I have with him. And we are more a family because we are all making this work together. Shane and I always said we would go wherever the Lord called us. Here we are. This is our calling. We walk it not nearly as perfectly as we would like, but much more joyfully than we would have expected. It is grace. That's all I can say: it's His grace.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
June 28, 2008
So since I can't remember this particular day, I was looking back on blog posts from last year right before Silas was born. Even though I was over my due date on this day, I had many thoughts about the timing of his birth. I shared that Shane and I had celebrated our anniversary the weekend before, just in case our baby came a bit early. And I noted that Silas' name was a God-given reflection of how He had worked in our lives last year.
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June 28, 2009
Silas is 11 months, 3 weeks, and 5 days old.
While I am getting ready in the morning, Silas loves to pull everything out of the cabinet below my sink. He does it slowly and deliberately; he examines each bottle or tube, shakes them, squeezes them, then throws them behind him. Don't worry, all the "ouchies" are locked in the cabinet under Shane's sink.
Silas has been going to the nursery at church for months now. But just recently he has decided it's really hard to say goodbye to Mommy and Daddy when we drop him off. Therefore, the whole thing has become torture. Once we're gone for a few minutes, he calms and plays happily. But his pacifier is his best friend at church so far.
I do like to have him in worship with us. So about one Sunday a month we keep him, hold him during the music, and one of us takes him out once the sermon starts. We did that today.
We worship with Silas all the time. We sing songs about Jesus at naptime and bedtime. He hears me memorize scripture. He pauses before mealtime for us to pray (even if it's forced right now, you know?). Church will always be a vital part of our lives, but it will never take the place of Silas seeing Christ reflected in our everyday lives. Before he was born, I never took this responsibility as deeply to heart as I do now. Silas is starting to learn. My prayer is that the Truth of the Cross be the most important thing we ever teach him.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
June 27, 2008
But Silas was not meant to be a June baby after all. So on my due date Shane and I headed in to my doctor's office for one last appointment. I had been having contractions the whole previous week. But "nothing organized", I kept telling everyone. It was just a random contraction here or there.
My doctor had me sit with a monitor on for quite a while. Silas must have been sleepy because he wasn't moving much once they put the monitor on. A nurse came in after some time and reminded me to push the button when I felt him move. I told her I hadn't felt him move so she proceeded to wake him. It was the most bizarre and somewhat unnerving thing: she took a vibrating device (it made me think of getting shocked without the pain) that kind of buzzed and stuck it on my tummy. Silas woke up! I apologized to him time and again. Poor baby - no wonder he didn't make any moves toward birth after that!
My doctor was pretty nonchalant about when they would induce me. She started to say that they would just see me the next Friday, one week after I was due, and decide then. But that would be the 4th of July. "We'll be here," she said. But I don't want to have a baby on the 4th of July. "Well, when do you want to have him?" We looked at the doctor on call sheet, reminded ourselves that we had prayed for wisdom, and chose Wednesday, July 2nd. "We'll see you before then," the nurse said as we left.
I went on in to work, after Shane and I decided that it would be my last day. I really didn't have much to do. I had turned my whole caseload over to a new and wonderful speech pathologist already. I didn't even have one client to see anymore. I finished up the last bit of paperwork, made the rounds to tell our director and the other therapists the plan, then left the building. If it had not been so hot and I had not been so large and tired, I might have reveled a bit more in the joy of leaving work for the last time pre-baby. My days being a full-time speech pathologist were over. I was going to be a full-time wife and mom who worked a few hours doing speech therapy. I couldn't wait.
But before all that, I decided to nap. The heat and weight were enough to put all future plans on hold. So nap I did. And I never loved it more.
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June 27, 2009
Silas is 11 months, 3 weeks, and 4 days old.
He is taking steps on his own.
His favorite word to say is "push." It sounds like hoosh most of the time. He says it and points to any button he sees (toys, light switches, garage door opener).
He can climb our stairs.
He loves to look at books and turns the pages himself.
Has one particular dog in one particular book that he especially likes. And he likes to point to it.
Usually sleeps at least 11 hours at night. But every now and then he wakes and just wants to be with Mommy. I try to appreciate it.
Naps about 3 hours during the day.
Is asking "What is that?" Sounds like is at? And he points to anything close by. He laughs every time I answer: That's a fence, a window, the tree, our car, Silas, your swimming pool, the grass, a bird, Auggie, clouds, LuLu, the puppy's food, the grill, Daddy...
We laugh and laugh and laugh. Even in the middle of the night (most of the time). Silas has certainly added to our joy.
GREAT Nana and Papa
Silas loved sitting with Great Papa and playing with his cane...
Reading books with Great Nana...
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Yep, And Even Better
Silas looked very big to me all of a sudden when we got to Michelle's place and I was about to take him out of his carseat. So I had to snap a picture before we even got going. And him in those swim trunks? It was more than my heart could stand, he was so cute.

Silas and Everett got to ride in the wagon on our walk to the pool. Like how we got a picture of them both happy? Me, too, cause this was about one minute before Silas decided he didn't like the wagon, started crying, and made Everett start crying. So we loaded our bags in the wagon and carried the boys. Oh, well...
We hadn't been to a real pool since Singapore and I wasn't quite sure how it would go...
But HE LOVED IT! This floaty raft thing is great. Silas thought it was too fun...
The Days Just Keep Getting Better
Luther and Augustine had no idea what was about to happen...
Ok, I first have to say that I usually spend about 45 minutes brushing them and get (what I thought was) quite a bit of hair. With the Furminator today I only brushed for 15 minutes total between the two of them and here is what the floor looked like after...
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Good Day
We had a late night Sunday because the Southern Baptist Convention is in Louisville this week and we decided to spend a few hours there at the Pastor's Conference. It was fun to see friends from here in the area but also some who had come from Missouri. We even parked right next to Dr. Jerry Rankin, the president of the International Mission Board, and his wife, Bobbye. My family has known them for years. It was a treat to hug them and show them our Silas.
Silas spent his time at the Convention crawling all over and pulling up on everything in sight. I did go check out the childcare area, but decided not to endure the emotional turmoil of the separation. Silas was happy enough with us. He loved the worship music and big screens. He pushed his own stroller back and forth at the back of the auditorium, had a snack, and leaned back in his stroller with his feet up at the end of the night. It was so cute. I forgot our camera, but we took some pictures on our phones. When I get that figured out, I'll post them.
Taking Silas to the Convention was kind of a big deal for me because I have not been since I was two weeks old. My parents took me that summer right after I was born. Now here we are, taking Silas.
We have a busy week...errands today, swimming with friends tomorrow (CAN'T WAIT TO GET PICS OF THE BOYS SWIMMING), and my grandparents come to visit on Thursday. I'm sure I'll be sharing pictures of the days to come...
Saturday, June 20, 2009
First Steps!!
Silas took his first steps this morning! My sister, Tara, is in town so we were playing in his room. He took one step from his truck to the chair right before this video and we completely rejoiced! So we set him up for this one. In a house where videotaping is minimal, it was a complete miracle that we caught this milestone on tape. I am THRILLED...
ps. Please ignore me in my pjs!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Learning to Walk
Silas is getting very close to walking on his own. He will hold one of our fingers and walk several steps before giving up and crawling. This morning he and I were playing in his room and he pushed this truck back and forth across the room about 7 times.